Maybe this time i’ll do things differently, Or maybe this time i’ll do exactly what i usually do. Maybe i’ll end up in a different place, where i used to belong, Or maybe i’ll just find myself in the exact same position.
Maybe she was like that with everyone? Or maybe she was legitimately interested. Maybe the silence showed promise, Or maybe it told me exactly what i didn’t want to hear.
Donnie, an atheist is someone who denies altogether the existence of God. You’re an agnostic. An agnostic is someone who believes that there can be no proof of the existence of God, but does not deny the possibility that God exists.
Dr. Lilian Thurman: Do you feel alone right now? Donnie: Oh, I don’t know. I mean I’d like to believe I’m not but I just… I’ve just never seen any proof so I… I just don’t debate it anymore, you know? It’s like I could spend my whole life debating it over and over again, weighing the pros and cons and in the end I still wouldn’t have any proof so I just… I just don’t debate it anymore. It’s absurd. Dr. Lilian Thurman: The search for God is absurd? Donnie: It is if everyone dies alone.
When you develop an infatuation for someone you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn’t need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for example. Now, in the long run, that’s just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, it’s just what you’ve been searching for all these years.
And me, I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know it’s not some place you can look for, because it’s not where you go. It’s how you feel for a moment in your life when you’re a part of something, and if you find that moment. It lasts forever.